How do I get the pieces of the puzzle together nicely?

I just read this wonderful quote and it felt exactly as if the words were written for me right now. I’ve tried to explain it to friends as the feeling you have when you know that you are about to get a clear view (finally) of where you are and where you are going but you are not out of the woods yet and therefor can’t see a thing.

“Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

Thomas Edson

It’s really frustrating and despite knowing that those thoughts are not helpful at all, I just can’t help myself getting stuck in the thinking pattern of “What the heck am I  supposed to be doing and how will I make money?” I just don’t want to miss my opportunity to shine in the world and to SERVE others by being the best ME that I could possibly be, so well described in this other genius quote I read recently:

 “There is a vitality, a life force, an energy a quickening that is translated through you into action and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.”

Martha Graham

It’s just that RIGHT NOW, this very minute I’m not at all clear on how to put the pieces of the puzzle together. I know what I’m good at and what I do with ease, but I just don’t know how to “package” it or make it a valid business. Just needed to get it off my chest and be done with it (and save it for the record 😉 )!

 I’m guided, life supports me and I’m safe. Love you all!

“I have a big sister and her name is Ingrid”

We have managed to shock quite a few people during our holiday in Sweden this year. The reason being that Elin is now big enough to share her world with people she meets (and that are not immediate family or friends), and she proudly tells everone that she has got a big sister who is called Ingrid.

Many then look at me as if asking “Is she making this up?” and I then find myself smiling a bit apologeticly for having to “shock” them with the news that it’s true and that Ingrid is in heaven. Then there is a short pause and maybe an “oh” or “I understand”and that’s it. I’m not saying that it’s wrong, hurtful or even irritating, it just is what it is.

I have to get used to my children speaking freely about the fact that they do have a big sister in heaven. And I have to make sure that I can support them with words and stories in order to help them tell others about their reality. Ingrid is so present in our lives and that is how we wanted it to be, no secrets and no hiding the fact because her younger sister and brother are too small to hear the truth.

So if anyone out there knows of a good book for children who has a sibling in heaven, and that is POSITIVE and FUN, please share, also so I can share it on to other families in similar situations!!! Thanks and have a fantastic day!

                                    Elin and Victor planting flowers for Ingrid <3